You’re not creating it consciously, with awareness – but you’re doing it unconsciously – without any awareness whatsoever. And you can’t change something that you’re not even aware of.
We can only STOP self-sabotage, when we become aware of what’s causing it. But trust me, if I could do it, anyone can.
I was the queen of self-sabotage. And it sucked BAD.
My lack of self-love manifested outwardly in my relationships as jealousy, insecurity and I was so crap at communication with my partner because I got triggered ALL THE TIME – I couldn’t chose my actions – I reacted and had Chernobyl-grade meltdowns.
It went far beyond screwing up my relationships.
I also self-sabotaged my financial situation because of my addictions.
I self-sabotaged my happiness. A few years ago I had my DREAM job – two beautiful big community gardens that I created from scratch. I dropped a big fat A-bomb on my dream and burnt it to smithereens because of my addiction and dysfunction.
Self-sabotage often comes from the root program of lack of self-love.
We crave love and happiness – we’re starving for it – it’s ALL WE WANT to fill the void. But we can’t have stability, happiness or loving healthy relationships for any long periods of time.
You can't create good things on a LASTING basis, until the subconscious program is changed.
How mindful drawing helped me to stop self-sabotage.
I developed this increasingly roomy, powerful pause between stimulus and response - I found I was able to consciously choose my thoughts and responses - instead of react. It started as a tiny space. But with practice it grew.
Loving yourself more means hurting yourself less.
If you keep consistently putting in the work, one day soon you’ll look at yourself and realise you’re now clear of the underlying programs that create self-sabotage.
You see you’re no longer a puppet unconsciously carrying out the program to manifest shit into your reality.